Puck_schouw


Hii you,

So the end is here, maybe a relieve for some and maybe for some not. Here I tell you it is a relieve for me, why you ask? Well I was stuck, stuck in-between my head and the connection that it can make with a computer. It didn’t work anymore, I tried to find a line in between there, that would make me satisfied. So at the start, I felt relief because I was struggling a lot with what I wanted, this felt nice. Like some extra time that was given to me to think and take some rest. But I question myself did I fully use that time to find this out these questions? The first 2 weeks it was nice, it was easy and clear for me just do it try and try it out. It was just a new way, I was hoping it was temporary. After those 2 weeks it already slowly came forward, I can’t handle abrupt changes, it is really hurting my brain and makes me feel restless. I was stuck in my room where normally my free time is you know the safe place to fall back on but now I also worked here, the frustration, the hedages, and resistance took place. This broke my head and work flow, it was gone and I had to look for them again. Not only was this happening with school work, but also with some personal things I went through. I know everyone has to go through this but somehow my head just didn’t accept it and outcasted everything and I had headaches so I was looking for a way out. I started to read and study poetry which I really liked but this took me too much time, I am not a great reader. So I gave that up for now, I was trying really hard to find my way back to connect with my computer, I tried and learned new programs, some I really like others just don’t get me even started on it….. this dragged me down again and I asked myself why? It is one that it isn’t working out but some how I did not accept this. It felt like I was doing nothing, I didn’t learn anything(or really slow), like I did not accomplish anything. So I also did some other projects for myself that didn’t have anything to do with the computer and some projects with people from different apartments. Despite the fact I wasn’t really feeling this week teams and all digital content, I learned a lot, some new programs and some ways of thinking for myself and on my own pace. It is sad to say but it still feels like my brain is on fire, but everyone probelby feels like this so..
Maybe rest came at the right time.

Here the works I want to present:

Solitude | Collection of actions // The confrontation

Escapisme | Incentives

Resistance | Just sit

Before awakening (extracurricular)

Transformations (extracurricular)


Solitude | Collection of actions // The confrontation

Solitude; Thought stream
Video the letter; thought stream Here I confront myself, on several levels. By reading this letter and then looking at myself, I have always said that the eyes are so much more. When eyes meet it can have so many outcomes, I’m afraid of this meeting, afraid that people can read me and see me, see i…
Solitude; Collection of actions
Collection of actions; Is a collection of reflection of moving actions. Visualised in a empty space.

Some process:

A poem
When corona started I was really isolated, and stuk with my self. Completly draged down because my one thoughts so i decided to try to write these down in the form off poems. Everyday I tryed to right one, to find some peace in my head. Here some exsmples I put in my pc.
Sound; Solitude
It is a recording of my thought stream that took place at that time in that moment, it took me away for a while and was as fast gone again. We are lonely at this time with hardly anyone around us. This does not mean that they are gone, but it can feel that way and feelings are something almost incom…
Solitude; An image of moving actions
An image of moving actions; An image, and yet an infinity stream of movements, thoughts, colors and actions.
Solitude; The confrontation
The confrontation; Facing the facing.

Escapisme | Incentives

Escapisme
incentives Escapism is mental diversion from unpleasant or boring aspects of daily life, typically through activities involving imagination or entertainment. Escapism may be used to occupy one’s self away from persistent feelings of depression or general sadness. I noticed that I always have done t…
Face print
Augmented reality face print

Resistance | Just sit

My environment
Unity game I tried to recreate a place that gave me a certain feeling what i had with the week theme resistance, where I was looking for peace. Peace of not thinking, peace of not feeling bad but also not feeling happy. I just wanted for once to feel nothing to think nothing. But I did want to feel…
A 1 hour sit
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some proces;

vr environment
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Resistance
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Resistance: walk
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Faild resistance
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Resistance
videos
Resistance off 1,5
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Social resistance
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Before awakening (extracurricular)

The mind before awakening
Fundamentals: after affect project I chose the word imagination, I focused on the dream because I find it really fascinating how it can look and feel so real but when you wake up that it can be gone. Like the 30 after you wake up this completely flashes by, you relive the thing you dreamt but than,…

Transformations (extracurricular)

Transformation
I made a collage of my face and put this in processing and played witg the pixel position. So how do you look at this, every image the image you have towards something. Is built out of the fragments you look for, why are you looking at me like that? What do you see? If you look away you don’t see m…